Brandon K Brown

Gettin' better!

2007-07-08T20:00:12Z

Okay, I've lost track of how many day's it's been. No biggie. I haven't lost much weight that I can see yet. I think what I'm burning is transferring into muscle. 'Cause I have begun to notice a difference in my arms and legs. Small still, but there's a bit showing.

Outside of the gym, not much is happening. Work is still stressfull and annoying, but that's pretty much anywhere. Unless you have the dream job where you don't do anything and get paid lot's of money and don't have to deal with people. Let's face it, work sucks. Period!

Just watched the new Robotech movie, "The Shadow Chronicles". Not bad, could have been better and ended like there was going to be a sequal. I hope so, because I'm tired of this Admiral Rick Hunter drama. They need to figure that shit out. Plus, the movie started off with a whole new take on the Invid/Regis thing. The original series ended much differently than the beginning of the movie. Consistency, people!

Ooh! Also finished watching the 3rd series of Doctor Who. The second season with David Tenant. Some really freaky shit goin' on with this season. I really like Martha, but she's no Rose. Come back Billie Piper! If I were straight, I'd marry her. And it was great seeing Cpt. Jack back with the Doctor. They just need to get some actors who are going to stay with this shit. Freema has left, though she'll return sometime next season. And there's already rumors going that David will be leaving after this next season. But, I'm glad that Freema will be crossing over to Torchwood for a few episodes and that Catherine Tate will be the Doctor's new companion for the fourth season. She's returning as Donna from the "Runaway Bride". Fuckin' loved that episode, and she was great. They made a good team.

Anyway, all for now!

Love, peace & the TARDIS
Brandon

Day 8

2007-06-29T01:14:41Z

Okay, this is gonna be short, 'cause I gotta hit the sack. Scaled at 187lbs even. Warmed up, then did some abs & leg shit. Then I did 30 min of cardio. Sat in the sauna and scaled at 186.4lbs. Why am I not losing anything? I will ask me trainer tomorrow. Have an appointment in the evening. Gonna work a bit harder this time. I hate being a pussy!

Love, peace and sport boxers

Day 7

2007-06-27T22:57:00Z

Just got back from Gold's Gym from a 2hr work out. I spent the first hour with a personal trainer. He had me work on my upper body. I'm really fuckin' weak. But, that will change in time. The second hour was spent on the treadmill. Note, Madonna's "Confessions On A Dancefloor" is great cardio music. Oh yeah, at the start I weighed in at 185.6 and at the end I came in at 184.4. I gotta change my diet out a little bit, so I should start seeing some results soon. I hope.

Love, peace & gym socks

Day's 5 & 6

2007-06-26T21:12:29Z

Ok, yo! So, it's been a couple days since I've posted. That's because I had to go to work yesterday right after the gym. First, I took the scales at 187.something pounds, ouch. I worked out on the Hammer Strength machines for about 1/2 hour and then did some cardio. On the Hammer's I did upper body, ab's and legs. After all was done, I barely lost a pound. Oh well, always tomorrow. So, today I scaled at 185.7lbs. Worked on the Hammer's again, only doing pecs, ab's and leg's this time. Mainly 'cause I was sore from yesterday. Which does not bode well for my first appointment with my personal trainer tomorrow. I hear he's tough. But, that's good. It's what I need. After that I rode the bike for 25min and walked the treadmill for another 25. Burned about 360 calories or so. Came in on the scales at 184.4lbs. Getting closer to where I was last week. I'm starting to watch my diet a little better, it's gonna be damn hard to watch those calories. Oh, the fun in store for me.

Day 4

2007-06-24T18:51:51Z

Well, it's day 4 and I didn't even work out for a full hour. It was kind of disappointing, because I actually gained a couple pounds. I got on the scales before starting and came in at an even 186lbs. Did the treadmill for just over 20min, then got on the bike for almost 25min. But, I did lose exactly 1lb. Can't wait to see what happens tomorrow.

Love, peace & saunas

day 3

2007-06-24T00:55:44Z

Well, today was day 3 of the new fitness gig. I skipped yesterday because my dad had surgery earlier this week and he would have been my only way there. But, the man is kinda in pain right now, so I figured it's a small price to pay for his comfort. Anyway, Chuck & I went this morning somtime between 10 & 10:30. I got on the scales and saw that I was back up to 184.something. No big suprise since I didn't go yesterday. I worked out on this pecs machine thing and then some arm do-hickey. After that I did some leg press' & something w/the ankles that supposed to help your upper thighs and some other muscle. (I'm so educated about this shit, huh?) Then went into the cardio theatre and walked briskly for pert near a half hour. I could have gone a little longer, but Chuck was ready to go. So we called it a day. Upon leaving I stepped on the scales again and came in at an even 184. Woo-hoo! Oh well, results don't happen that quick. To quote the great bard Morrissey "These things take time, & I know that I'm the most inept that ever stepped." Well, the "these things take time" part anyway.

Love, peace & cross-trainers
Brandon

day 2

2007-06-21T23:42:00Z

Well, it's day 2 of me getting healthy & in shape. First, I actually got a full 8hrs of sleep and hope I can keep that up. I had some cream of wheat for b-fast and some couscous & chick pea sald for lunch (like anyone cares, huh). And that makes 4 days w/out meat of any kind. Though I have had some milk & cheese throughout the week. Before starting my cardio for the day, I got on the scales to weigh myself. I registered at 183.6lbs, about the same as yesterday when after working out. I was on the treadmill for 45min and then the cross-country ski machine thingy for another 10min. I walked at a faster pace than yesterday & burned a little more, I could feel it in my legs. After that near hour of cardio, I took to the scales once more and came in at 182.6lbs. Not bad, I know results will vary depending on what I eat, when I eat it & when it leaves my body. But that's why I'm starting to record all of this. It's definately not for posterity! I need to keep track of this shit so I know what's going on with my body and stuff, right. Anyway, that's all fer now.

Brandon

Let's work out!

2007-06-21T08:38:29Z

Okay, so I haven't been on here in, like, forever. Oh, well, not everyone is that committed yet. Anyway! Chuck and I just got memberships to Gold's Gym the other day. Yesterday was day 1 on the road to fitness. What a fucking shock! I had no idea that I weighed 184lbs. Ugh! Well, I'm going to make it slow start. Don't want to shock my body or have an asthma attack. Got on the treadmill and walked 4 miles, burned 398 calories and lost about 1lb. Oh, I feel lighter all ready. Of course when we got home my mother had way too much food set on the table for dinner. Yea, that's gonna help. So, I figure that this is the perfect place to record my journey on the road to a slimmer, toner & more muscular me. That, and I got some new shoes!

Brandon

This is why I shouldn't look at these damned test things!

2007-04-29T13:46:35Z

You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.

While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.

Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.

You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

lilbear73 @ 2007-04-29T09:39:00

2007-04-29T13:45:57Z

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Orange Punisher

Your Superpower is Genetic engineering

Your Weakness is Spiders

Your Weapon is Your Glue Lasso

Your Mode of Transportation is Motor Home

What's your Superhero Name?

lilbear73 @ 2007-04-29T09:36:00

2007-04-29T13:38:16Z

You Are 92% Democrat

You are a card carrying Democrat, and a pretty far left one at that!

There's no chance anyone would ever mistake you for a Republican.

How Democrat Are You?

lilbear73 @ 2007-03-28T17:53:00

2007-03-28T21:54:47Z

	According to experts, I am : 80% Redneck
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Another day, another gripe

2007-03-22T20:17:43Z

Hi! It's me, your friendly nieghborhood grouch with more to complain about from the retail world. Had a come up to me today asking for some book about the "Reluctant Ecologist". Said it's about Al Gore, he heard them talking about it this morning on TV. Sorry, I'm in here at 6AM and don't have the priviledge of watching morning television. But I humor him and try to look it up. Nothing. And I can see that he's one of these old retired types that'll get upset with me because I don't know the title of this book 'kay! I do several searches and say "Sorry, nothing coming up." So he goes and asks his wife, comes back and say's all stuck up like "Oh, it's the Skeptical Ecologist." Few more searches, still nothing. This time I ask around on our little headsets and he asks his wife again and comes back, tail between the legs "It's the Skeptical Environmentalist." So's I asked anyone if they new of a new book regarding Al Gore called that and he said "NO! It debunks him." And I'm all like, "Yeah, but it's about him, so it's regarding him." Can someone please tell me why I accept $7.50 a fucking hour to put up with this shit. Is it really worth it? If you were really interested in this book, you would have paid attention when you were watching the damn shit on the tv. And please take into consideration that those of us that work at ground level have to come in at ungodly hours to get these stores ready for your snotty assess to come ask your dumb questions. Oh happy day! Why do I torture myself so! Guess I'm just a masochist at heart. And that's just not right.
Anyway, I want to say something positive for a change. I love my life outside of work, and family. When I'm alone or with those I love, life is really cool. And I don't need any drugs or alcohol, don't need no one telling me what I need to be doin' to be liked or whutevah! I know that those who love me, love me for me. And they're the ones I need. Luv 2 U!

Peace!
B

Out of hiding

2007-03-21T18:26:53Z

Well, I've emerged from my hole, sort of. It's been a rather fucked up two-or-three weeks, I'm not sure how much time has passed since I last logged on . I do know that I forgot my password and had to get a new one. Anyway, a lot has happened, but I would like to start off by saying that I hate the general public. People out there in the world need to get to fucking clue and an education. They also need to get over this idea people get paid to do everything for them. We don't. When I go shopping, I find things on my own, I put them away on my own (neatly and back where I got them) and try my best to be civil with the employees. I'm not royalty and neither are you honey! No I didn't watch fucking Oprah and I don't give a damn what book was on the morning show. And that song by that girl where she sings about some guy that they've been playing on the radio, haven't fucking heard it! If I had, I would pull it out of my ass for you right now. I don't know, is it like my like my dildo?
WOW! That felt so good to say that. 'Cause that's just some of the shit I have to put up with at my job. These people don't care that I have to change my diet around because of some gastro-intestinal condition that I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. Or that my cat just died, or that my mother is suffering from severe depression and saying things like "I want to walk to Belize, but I need to get bulletts for my gun first," or "I want to kill myself, but don't tell your father because he's got enough stuff to deal with right now." But I have to hold my head up high and be proud to a fucking american. Though I'm more proud to be an out homosexual bear man who loves other men, loves playing D&D and watching Firefly and Farscape. I'd rather watch Sci-Fi or cartoons than listen to some stupid politician condemn my way of living and than come into my place of work and say "Do you work here?" and "I can't remember the name of the author or the book, but could you tell me if you have this in stock?"

Thank you

2007-02-23T21:53:02Z

I would love to thank my friend Starzinked taking the time and care to devote a page to my cat LOKA who passed the other day. I'm very touched and it helps me to know that I'm not the only one who thinks of my animal friends as more than brainless/soulless pets. They are my children and it was they who chose me to be their parent and guardian. I love them all deeply. So, I took LOKA to a pet crematorium yesterday and chose the best urn I saw. It cost me nearly $250, but I would have payed more if needed. Right now I'm out of the crying stage and in that kind of numb feeling. Also, I got home from work today and the candle I lit for her is still going strong and the aroma is wonderful. It's kind of a thing I do when I lose someone in my life. I will let it burn until it's all used up. A co-worker asked if I would be spreading the ashes somewhere. I told them when the time is right and I've found the appropriate place, I will spread the ashes of all my companions who've gone. Not just any place will do. Some might not understand, but it's not for them. It's for me. Again, thank you for the page and the beautiful words. It's going into my memories.

Brandon

A little loved one

2007-02-22T21:35:56Z

This morning start out as a usual day. I got up and took a shower, got dressed and headed off to work 'round 5:30am. Work was going well yet boring as usual and I was dreading the day's workloadl. Then a couple minutes before the store opened, I head my name being paged saying I had a call. At first I thought I misheard, 'cause I never get any calls unless something has happened. But I heard it again, so I went and answered the phone. I could tell right away by the crack and quiver in Chuck's voice that something was really wrong. And you now, that it's at that point you try to prepare yourself and think, I can take this whatever it. But not when one of your babies is has gone on to the other side. We don't know when it happened, LOKA was fine yesterday and even last night before I went to bed as I usually check on the kitties. But this morning Chuck went down and all the cats came running, except for her. Which was an immediate warning signal to him. LOKA was always first to come running, she never hid or cowered somewhere in a corner. So he started looking for her and soon found her curled up under their blanket. He said it looked like she died peacefully, we hope. At that point I knew I couldn't make it through the day, so I just walked right up to my boss and said "One of cats just died and I need to go". Of course it wasn't a problem, except for me keeping a straight face while cleaning up and walking out of there with some dignity.

But enough about me. LOKA was one of the sweetest, nicest most innocent cat's you could ever be blessed to have. Sure, when she was younger she was a bit skiddish, but she soon warmed up. She really became attatched to me, I guess you could say I was her daddy. Though Chuck and I both loved her a great deal. She had the tiniest little meow but the loudest motor. Especially when you would pet her a certain way, she couldn't get enough. LOKA had been with us through 9/11 and Katrina and a whole lot more. She was with Chuck for twelve years and me for a little over eight years. I guess twelve isn't too bad a life for a cat. You here stories of some living a lot longer than that, which would have been nice. But I feel totally blessed to have had her as long as I did. I took her to a pet crematorium today and will be picking her up monday or tuesday. At least now she is without want or illness, she is running the eternally green fields with those who have gone before. Edgar, I know you've never met her, but you've been up there with Desilu and Contessa long enough that the three of you can find her. Take good care of our beloved LOKA. She will be missed greatly and we'll be here to comfort the other kitties when they begin to realize you are gone. You know you were, are and always will be loved, and now you are in a place where you can realize just how great that love is. It will never end. My fondest memory is of you walking around the apartment with that balloon on a string. You were so cute. Maybe, if you ask, God will bring some balloons and bouncing balls to play with. I love you LOKA, ALWAYS!

Another frigid morning

2007-02-16T16:02:01Z

Good morning LJ and to all out there in LaLa Land. It's another cold morning and the snow is still covered with a layer of ice. I can actually go out there and stand or walk on top of it without it cracking, all 170lbs of me. Don't know why, but I love it when the weather is like this. Everything is so bright and clear, if only my life could be the same. Though I am feeling much better today than the past few days, that shadow still hangs over me. It's a personal thing, I know, and it's not for me to talk about here. So I won't.

Anyway, my dad is still feeling ill and I have to go to the doctor's yet again. Oh, I can't wait to get some money saved up and get back out in the real world. I'm in my mid-thirties and still being treated like a teenager. I know a lot of people my age and older have had to do this sort of thing, I just don't know how they survived. Constantly I hear "Brandon?" and I answer "Yes" or "What" and they say "Oh, nothing". Fuck me gently with a chainsaw Heather, when will it stop! And it's driving Chuck crazy too, 'cause they do the same thing to him. Plus my dad is always on the "have to get you guy's a car" rant, even though we have repeatedly stated the fact that we both have bad credit. Hello, no one is going to give us a loan or sell us a car. We know this and keep saying this, but it's not getting through the knoggin. And there they go again!

Oh well, maybe things will be better this afternoon and my journal will appear much more pleasant. Just once I would like to have a peaceful thought, hell a peaceful moment.

Going to see the doctor

2007-02-15T21:34:24Z

Ya know, I just love going for a visit to the doctor's office. I've been somewhat ill the past few days and decided it was time for the professionals. Although the doctor was quite nice, she couldn't pinpoint what the problem was. It's so wonderful sitting there and they're saying it could be this, or it could be that, or even something else. I do understand that it's winter and there are a lot of airborne illnesses going around, tis the season. But for once I would like to hear something a little more reassuring. And then, just to make sure they cover it all, they give you a scrip for something that costs half your paycheck. Okay, enough with the rant, just had to get that out of my system. Been feeling like shit these past two days, but hey, it get's me out of work for another day that I don't get sick time for. I bet they're loving me at the shop right now.

Anyway, I can't stay in bed any longer cause it's driving me crazy. So now the issue is, do I watch Wonderfalls, Doctor Who or maybe some Torchwood. Then again, I haven't seen Serenity on the new great big high def tv yet. But what the hell, I've got a whole nother day. I could watch all of them. Just gotta shroud myself in heavy wool flannel blankets cause I've got chills colder than what's outside and body temp that takes me back to NOLA. And just like clockwork, halfway through what I'm watching, my dad will come out and say "Oh, what's this? Can you back it up?" But hey, that's what I get for staying with the folks 'til my feet are firmly planted on the ground again.

frozen in

2007-02-14T15:24:06Z

What a way to begin the day. Several inches of snow with sleet and freezing rain and most of the towns around here are closed for the day. I stepped outside a little bit ago and stood on top of the frozen snow. I love it when it's like this. Except we're stuck with my parents for the whole day, that's the only downer.

lilbear73 @ 2007-02-14T08:54:00

2007-02-14T13:56:34Z

Heller! I'm new to all this stuff and just wanted to say hi. Hi!